Wat is happening to my skin??!!

I hated my skin.

The outbreak is non stop and as my hands refuse to leave them alone, therefore causing more scaring. I noe I noe, I shudn't pick on my skin esp those clog pores. But the fact is tat, I'm dying for flawless skin and simply cudn't accept any clog on my skin.

So whenever I feel my skin that there r sum harden pore on my face, I've the urge to squeeze them out.

Frankly, I felt very sad. I tot I've taken great care of my skin. I've spend efforts doing the 3 mus do everyday - wash, tone, moisturize. Also, I've make great efforts to remove my make up and cleanse my skin. Yet, the outbreak jus wun stop.

It is especially so a wk b4 my mense. I cun control the hormone change. Mayb my beautician has spot on. I shud watch my diet b4 my mense. She has mentioned tat the hormone has change b4 the mense and mayb jus a pc of choco wud trigger and clog my pores, causing pimples to pop out.

Moreover, my pimples r usually those poreless ones. So they grow from within. Thus, I can hardly squeeze them out. This has caused more problems as I need to squeeze real hard jus to force out bit of it. End up, my skin is torn, bled and scarred.

Recently hv seen a doc and most of his advise are different from the norm. I'll try to follow his advise and work on my skin. Praying hard that it wud recover soon.

Now, I no longer wish for flawless skin. So long as it doesn't give mi any outbreak, and the scarring lighten, even out my skin tone. I guess I can live with the fact tat I cun achieve perfect skin. I m no long in my teens or early twenties when my skin is in a almost perfect condition.

Felt rely sad abt it.

Basic Respect for a Friend

I've many tots these days, starting with the most recent tot - basic respect for a friend.

Recently, I lent my luggage to a friend, which of cus, is a totally normal gesture for a friend. This luggage was delivered to her hse, for her convenience. When agreeing on this loan, I've mentioned that I need to take it back as soon as she return. Her return flight was tuesday and we hv agreed to return the luggage on wednesday. My mum is flying of on the coming Sunday and I need to get back the luggage for her.

Sad to say, when I contacted my friend on Wed, she told me she wanted to go cheong and would not be around for me to collect the luggage. Pls take note, I dun expect her to send back to me, instead, my bf will go to her hse to take from her. So, of cus, when I heard this, I dun feel good.

Nonetheless, I agree to collect on Thurs nite instead. However, at 11pm Wed nite, my friend called my bf telling him she is going out the following evening and requested he either collect at tat time or on Thurs morn.

OMG, is tat hw a friend shd do? I mean, I've told her I need to take the luggage on Wed, she can't make it, I've pushed it to Thurs nite. Yet again, she just fix other appt and call up to say she wun b around for us to collect the luggage.

Comeon, if u r a true friend, at least hv some respect - Keep your promise. Moreover, this has been mentioned and agreed upon. Is not a last min thing. I've informed of my mum trip at the point she borrowed the luggage. Thus, issit too much to request for the return of the luggage 4 days b4 my mum trip.

When I heard that my friend would be home whole day on Thurs and only go out in the evening, I felt more anger. She knew that both my bf and myself will be working in the day, and we can only go over in the nite to collect the luggage. Yet, of the whole day, she choose to go out at nite.

Anyway, I felt disheartened. When she needed me as a friend, I was there. But when she patch back with her lover, she just accommodate to her lover and neglect her friends.

I've mentioned b4, she will lose all her friends if she continue this way. But it seems like my advise ain't important. More impt is making her lover happy.

I wish she is happy with her decision and life.

I guess I can just treat that she has lost a friend.

I m stubborn, but I c it as a principle. I dun need friends who do not hv a basic respect for our agreement or appointments.

Updates of my activities

Din mge to get up for my swim on wed. Haiz. My bed is simply too cozy, can't bear to leave it too soon.

But applause to myself, I manage to make an effort to get up earlier for a swim with my colleagues on Fri morn. Once started, I believe there will be more such swims coming.

Fri was rely a bz day. Start wif an early morn swim, followed by a day of work. Thank god work isn't too bz or too pressing. A good lunch at Central followed by my fav bubble tea. I felt contended.

After work get to mit up wif my ex-colleagues for dinner. Though dinner is jus a simple meal at KFC but it was fun getting together, toking n joking. Afterwhich was 3 rounds of bowling. Indeed, we had a great time at the alley joking n playing. Sk is forever the joker, wif his nonsense n actions, we felt well entertained.

Nex came the long agreed durian sessions. I din hv much, both worrying abt my weight and my health (worry abt the heatiness it will caused to the body). Dunno who came up wif the silly idea - mj after the durains. OMG, I actually has to get hm to work on the Argentina shipments. How tiring.

Anyway, I've agreed to it if they can wait for mi to finish my work. It was rely rush but den no regrets. The game was rather fun but I believe it would b beta if we r less tired. Moreover, my luck is pretty gd.

The only prob is that we hv stay up too late. The game ended ard 7.20am and I've to rush hm to return the car duly to my bro. Sad to say, driver doesn't seems to b in a gd condition to drive Mable hm, thus, no choice, I've offer to send.

We hv missed the exit and thus took longer than usual to get to Mable hse. The rain has caused further anxiety to the pressing time. Luckily I mge to reach hm in time to rtn the car promptly.

After a long day and a long nite, no question ask, I jus zzz n zzz thru out the day. I slept all the way til almost 5pm. Shiok. Wake up and gotta rush to see baby Jaiwei. I guess we enjoy ourselves with Jaijun than jus seeing Jaiwei sleeping.

Jaijun is truly an entertainer. Cheeky and talkative and playful. Watching him play can be interesting. He is full of expression and actions, making the visit less boring.

Pretty happy visiting the 2 little kids. The nex best ting was watching the fireworks at Marina Square. Fireworks was great, rely nice. No doubt there r alot of pple and we faced the pressure of not able to get a carpark lot. We finally decided to park illegally at one of the dark lanes.

Hmmm, after the wonderful fireworks, we headed for a fulfilling dinner at Kenny Rogers. To end the day, we headed over to Liang Seah street for desserts. No regrets for the day.

Sunday was another lazy day. Sleep to catch up with the lost on Fri nite. Due to the constant rain, we did nothing but rot at hm. Both of us jus laze on the bed, zzz, watch tv n snacks. Wun say it has been fruitful day but catching up with my beauty zzz would nv be considered a waste of time.

Anyway, though we din go ahead wif our movie plans, we still manage to go ahead with the plan for the mooncakes. No doubt getting 5 boxes of mooncakes cost a bomb to his pocket. Haiz, dun understand y mooncakes has to be so expensive. No choice, it's once in a yr where these hotels n bakery make money.

There goes another wkn.

Coming wk hope will be another interesting week.



Oni 2 rounds and

I wanna keep fit

Hmmmm.... I truly wanna take up some activities to keep fit.

I feel tat I've put on sum weight. I wun say I'm fat now, but still I dislike the added few pounds. Jus so nt mi de. I've search on the PA website to check out on the avail courses. Planning to take up 2 courses, 1 more cardio another more relax. Kick boxing n yoga is my target.

Sad to say, either the time doesn't fit or it's outta the way. Hack! I've decided and I wanna make it happen. Nex wk if still cannot find beta options, I'll stick with the best avail options.

Life is like tat. If u dun make an effort to make tings happen, tings will nv happen. Since I cannot tahan myself getting fat, den I hv to do sum ting abt it lor. Beginning is always tough, but after a while, I tink I'll enjoy it.

Anyway, might be able to get Elsie to join mi for one course and driver for another. With company, I believe tings wld be beta lor. At least hv sum motivation.

Tomolo I might be able to push myself out to a swim. Once started, I tink I would enjoy the stretching of my muscles.

Jus hope that I can drag myself outta my cozy warm bed.

Looking forward to it.

A wk of events

So soon, more than a wk has past.

There seems to be alot of happenings. Start from the most recent seems the easiest.

Over the last wkn, I've been doing my 2 favourite "S" activity - sleep n shop. I've been sleeping for 12 hours on Fri nite and probably 10 hours for Sat nite. 1 word - Shiok.

Work has been rely tiring esp last work cos I've to monitor some shipments at Argentina & Brazil. Therefore, I've been getting up for few nites to check on the updates.

Despite the holiday on Monday (off in lieu for National Day), I am more tired than usual. Not sure exactly wat happened, but din zzz as much as I used to. Den Monday came the chalet where I hv been running ard planning for the bbq. Moreover, customer has been pestering non stop, making me more than bz.

Monday nite was a disaster for sleep. Mayb it was the noisy bed or was it the unfamiliar environment or is it his "drastic" movement tat has made the bed so forever jerking... haiz.... Followed by a long day at work and a nite shift after a few hours of zzz. Tough tough....

Tot an early nite on Wed would be helpful but who noes the time of the mth has to come on tat fateful day. *sian to the power of infinity*

Thurs came the long waited badminton session. Regardless of how tired I m, play will keep me going, especially wif a group of good friends. Play followed by a entertaining movie and sum good food. Wat else can u ask. No doubt it again cos more tiredness to my oredi exhausted body, there is no regrets.

Back at 2am plus, shower plus work, another 4am late nite zzz. *yawn

Finally came Fri. Luckily work was quite relax with most issues solved. Fri is even a longer day for me, cos another 4 rounds of mj after work.

Too bad luck on the square table wasn't gd at all. Since the first round, luck has been down. All the way down til almost $250 gone. Worried man. Luckily Guan Ying hasn't abandon mi. Last round my luck start to twist abit. Wun say fantastic but mge to pull back about $170 at the end losing ard $70.

Not too bad. *thk q Guan Ying.... kekekekeke

Sat is my best time for zzzz.... My favourite activity for wkn. Rest n relax. Sad to say, after 6 hours of sleep, my customer decided to dig mi outta my bed. Haizzz..... Sian. Y can't they jus give mi a break.... I jus need more rest.....

Luckily the issue was solve within half an hour and from den on, I got my peach. Hv nuah at hm for almost the whole day. On off wake up abit jus to check the clock n play wif my doggie. Best time of the wk.

Finally by 5pm, I decided to pull myself outta the bed. After a shower, felt refresh. Did bit of laundry, pack sum stuff, did sum miscellaneous and I m ready to leave the hse.

Shopping time. We jus go ard to look for a backpack for his wkly swimming daz. Rely a gd buy, nice design, great discount. *hehe

Nex we move back to bugis to shop around. Tis time, I finally made up my mind to buy my black heels. 1 shot bought 2 pairs, shiok! I simply love to purchase.

Jus few steps outta the shop, we came to body shop. Discount again, and it's exactly on the pdt we used. Who could resist the 40% discount. Well, with my purchasing power, at 1 shot, I bought 6 tubs of the scrub. *whew

On top of tat, there are sum promotions on other items which was too tempting for mi. End up, we spent more than $170 at bodyshop. hmmmm..... I m jus too spendrift....

But I do enjoyed the purchasing process. Great buy for mi. After tat, we went abt snacking n shopping, walk here n there browsing ard. The day end wif a bowl of nice dessert each at Liang Seah Street.

Hmmm, hm was jus Olympics games n switching of channels. To sum extend, I've get used to jus spending the day in my room wif him, watching tv, playing wif my doggie, packing of stuff, playing psp, surfing internet or jus nuah ard..... Life is simple.

Sunday, zzz again. *haha, I love my bed. Cozy n comfort.....

Waking up would be laundry n shower. Den snacking n ironing. Very soon, we are ready to leave the hse again for the 2nd round of shopping.

Pick up Flo and went to Suntec city to shop. Not too bad either. I got 2 more blouses. I noe I noe, my cupboard is screaming for space n yet I'm conveniently ignoring the fact tat the wardrobe is oredi 200% full. Wat to do, I jus like to buy n buy, esp clothings..... :p

Besides my blouses, we bought 2 cushions to replace with the ones in the car. Tis massage cushion is pretty fun. Rely, not too bad.

Snacking as usual, followed by our grocery spree. We love to buy grocery. Food has became our nex best friend. A bit here n there n tat sum up to another $70. wohoo, we r great spender.

Anyway, tat makes 1 wk of events.

Of cus, in between, there r sum up n downs at work. Still, y bother with those unhappiness, jus focus on the happier moments n life would b much happier.

Afterall, watever I do now, he is always around. N whenever I m bored, I get to bit him n vent frustration at. Wat else shd I ask for.

If oni, he can b more establish, n I believe we would b much more stable n probably happier......

Hoping tat day would come.

A brand new blog

I've created a new blog to drop down my little personal tots here.

All the old blogs are memories for myself. However, I've started a brand new life and I wanted to write in a totally new environment.

Y? Well, I feel tat life is getting beta for mi. I hope to start everything afresh. My language has 'deproved' which I feel rely sad. Since school days over, I've read lesser n lesser. I do miss reading but jus couldn't find the mood. Whenever I get back from work, I hardly hv the heart to read anymore.

I dun like to the idea of reading a few pages and leave the book aside. I will feel bad. N it's a waste of money.

I hope that while picking up on blogging I can brush up my writing skills. There r times when I feel rather ashame when I am unable to reply customer emails in a more professional language. I've always envy pple who speak and write eloquently.

Pen is mightier than a sword and the power of words is not to be undermined. Journalists & authors hv proof to be capable of changing the world in certain ways.

Of cus, if I hv the gift to write, I would love to be a writer. Since god doesn't c mi as his favourite child and hv nt given mi this gift, still, I would love to write whatever I feel like writing.

Writing is a form of relaxation, if you write for leisure. Dropping down little personal tots and re-reading them some days later may bring back good memories. Even if the posts ain't happy events, nonetheless, I believe, as time goes by, I'll read and smile at them. It may prove tat I've grown up, gain more wisdom, get away from the hard times etc.

Watever it is, I like writing. Esp writing in blogs as I do not hv to ans to any1 abt wat is written here. All personal tots for myself oni.

If u happened to visit my blog, read at ur own risks. I m nt responsible to write wat u like to read. haha.....

I hope tat I would conti to write here often.