Wat is happening to my skin??!!

I hated my skin.

The outbreak is non stop and as my hands refuse to leave them alone, therefore causing more scaring. I noe I noe, I shudn't pick on my skin esp those clog pores. But the fact is tat, I'm dying for flawless skin and simply cudn't accept any clog on my skin.

So whenever I feel my skin that there r sum harden pore on my face, I've the urge to squeeze them out.

Frankly, I felt very sad. I tot I've taken great care of my skin. I've spend efforts doing the 3 mus do everyday - wash, tone, moisturize. Also, I've make great efforts to remove my make up and cleanse my skin. Yet, the outbreak jus wun stop.

It is especially so a wk b4 my mense. I cun control the hormone change. Mayb my beautician has spot on. I shud watch my diet b4 my mense. She has mentioned tat the hormone has change b4 the mense and mayb jus a pc of choco wud trigger and clog my pores, causing pimples to pop out.

Moreover, my pimples r usually those poreless ones. So they grow from within. Thus, I can hardly squeeze them out. This has caused more problems as I need to squeeze real hard jus to force out bit of it. End up, my skin is torn, bled and scarred.

Recently hv seen a doc and most of his advise are different from the norm. I'll try to follow his advise and work on my skin. Praying hard that it wud recover soon.

Now, I no longer wish for flawless skin. So long as it doesn't give mi any outbreak, and the scarring lighten, even out my skin tone. I guess I can live with the fact tat I cun achieve perfect skin. I m no long in my teens or early twenties when my skin is in a almost perfect condition.

Felt rely sad abt it.

Basic Respect for a Friend

I've many tots these days, starting with the most recent tot - basic respect for a friend.

Recently, I lent my luggage to a friend, which of cus, is a totally normal gesture for a friend. This luggage was delivered to her hse, for her convenience. When agreeing on this loan, I've mentioned that I need to take it back as soon as she return. Her return flight was tuesday and we hv agreed to return the luggage on wednesday. My mum is flying of on the coming Sunday and I need to get back the luggage for her.

Sad to say, when I contacted my friend on Wed, she told me she wanted to go cheong and would not be around for me to collect the luggage. Pls take note, I dun expect her to send back to me, instead, my bf will go to her hse to take from her. So, of cus, when I heard this, I dun feel good.

Nonetheless, I agree to collect on Thurs nite instead. However, at 11pm Wed nite, my friend called my bf telling him she is going out the following evening and requested he either collect at tat time or on Thurs morn.

OMG, is tat hw a friend shd do? I mean, I've told her I need to take the luggage on Wed, she can't make it, I've pushed it to Thurs nite. Yet again, she just fix other appt and call up to say she wun b around for us to collect the luggage.

Comeon, if u r a true friend, at least hv some respect - Keep your promise. Moreover, this has been mentioned and agreed upon. Is not a last min thing. I've informed of my mum trip at the point she borrowed the luggage. Thus, issit too much to request for the return of the luggage 4 days b4 my mum trip.

When I heard that my friend would be home whole day on Thurs and only go out in the evening, I felt more anger. She knew that both my bf and myself will be working in the day, and we can only go over in the nite to collect the luggage. Yet, of the whole day, she choose to go out at nite.

Anyway, I felt disheartened. When she needed me as a friend, I was there. But when she patch back with her lover, she just accommodate to her lover and neglect her friends.

I've mentioned b4, she will lose all her friends if she continue this way. But it seems like my advise ain't important. More impt is making her lover happy.

I wish she is happy with her decision and life.

I guess I can just treat that she has lost a friend.

I m stubborn, but I c it as a principle. I dun need friends who do not hv a basic respect for our agreement or appointments.